My Beliefs about Karma and Soul Mates
I believe a few things about karma. One, karma is cycle and patterns. Two, these cycles and patterns can be seen throughout a life and sometimes they can be broken. Three, these cycles can be carried over from previous lives. Everyone has a pattern-- whether it be that they date people who cheat, they can't seem to find love, or when someone is attracted to a certain culture or a certain time period.
In everyone's life, there are ebbs and flows. Sometimes money, friends, and love are in an abundance; other times you can't pay a bum to hang out with you-- mostly because you don't have the money but also because there wouldn't be one who wanted to be around you. This is just the natural cycle.
What happens in one lifetime can be made up for in another lifetime. For example, if one person had good luck and fortune in one life time, that pattern can either continue or it can b the opposite that they'd have bad luck and misfortune.
Sometimes we have karma with people. It might be unfinished business. It might be that we are changing roles through several lifetimes, like within our families and close friends. This leads into Soul Mates. To my understanding, there are several types of soul mates. There are people who come in briefly into your life and they help you in some way. There are your family and close friends that are meant to be in your life for the long haul. Then, there's the romantic love soul mate-- the one and only. However, I believe that throughout many lifetimes, our souls are going through journey of attaining goals and they're reaching different levels in their journey. Sometimes, we meet with our soul mates before this life and decide whether or not to meet them during this life. It might be that we need to attend to a goal for our soul journey and that goals is so intensive, we won't meet the soul mate.
In conclusion, karma is the cycle of a lifetime and over the course of several lifetimes. Soul mates include many people, including helpers, friends and family, and romantic love soul mates. We can decide to not meet our soul mate in this lifetime.
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Friday, October 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Creative Writing Class-- Memoir
It's my junior year of college and I'm not taking any psychology classes. I'm making sure I take the classes I need before I go on to be an upper classman in psychology. I signed up for a creative writing class. It is taught by a graduate student. He is a muscular black man who loves BBQs. He used to be a butcher. He looks it. There's something in the way he teaches that I can tell he is new and anxious. Things don't seem to run smoothly. He pauses and appears like he's thinking but I think he just doesn't know what to do next. He puts his hand up to his chin when he thinks. He goes over the syllabus-- short stories first and then poetry. I am not into poetry. I used to write it when I was 12 and people liked it. It was terrible. I have it in a binder in storage and I don't intend to look at it again. There are some poems in my journal. They're just for me. I shared one with my boyfriend because it was about him. I think he liked it.
We read stories in our book, written by famous writers, and comment or talk about them. We pretend like we read other stories that are included in our book but I really don't. A guy with a red hat mentions "Yellow Wallpaper" and I remember reading it once for a women's studies class so I say that I read it too.
We have to write stories for the class. They're supposed to be anonymous. They're not. Even if you don't know who it is, you can tell in the class discussion by who isn't talking. My short story is 10 pages and I want it to be more. I don't think I capture what I wanted in it but it is a story. I did some research for it by reading The Outspoken Princess and the Gentle Knight. My story is based on my friends and their dramatic girlfriends. When I took Abnormal Psychology a year later and found about the word hysterionic, I know that that's what they were. With my story, in the end, the prince, who wants to marry the princess who is cheating on him, realizes that she's not going to change so he throws himself off a cliff. I realize after I write this to not have a set ending because the characters didn't seem like the type to kill themselves-- just leave and move on. I don't want to make it longer than it is. I have to copy it at school and it's going to be a lot of money to copy it for the 15 students.
The night before I have to turn this story into the class so they could take it home and criticize it, the library card reader wasn't working after I just put ten dollars on my card to be used for the copies. I was upset. I wanted my money back so I could make these copies for the students.
I get up early the morning its due and go to the library early. The card reader was thankfully working and I copied and stapled them right there.
I walk five minutes to the building where my class is and step into the classroom. I set the copies on the professor's table and sit in my chair next to the door and wait for the class to start. The class before ours must have been cancelled because no one is lingering in the class, trying to talk to the professor. They usually look happy when they leave. I would have rather been in that class.
My story is ok. I think it's clever. It isn't too bad. It has a lot of potential and I hope others would see that.
This class we discuss a student's story about coming out at Thanksgiving and another story about an adventure-er with an inflated ego and how he changed by climbing a mountain and facing a lion. I heard a similar story in "Wayne's World."
The next class came. I am dreading this day. The girls in the corner don't like me, even though one has a Polish sounding last name like mine. I hang out with Mike and Vanessa in the corner near the door. They are nice. Vanessa is always trying to find a story in her life. I thought she wasn't creative or maybe she didn't know how to be. This class sure wouldn't teach her to improve.
We didn't go over how to do constructive criticism. I get back all the stories I had copied. They now have edit marks by the kids who don't know how to do criticism well. Each person has to do a write up on the story on top of editing it. The professors gives these to me too after he had checked that everyone had done one. I could tell that he unfortunately doesn't read what's written on them.
The most horrible thing is from that bitch in the corner with the Polish sounding last name. She wrote, "This author displays no creativity." I keep a journal for class about the things I read and what I think about certain things. I write about how I read up on modern fairy tales and there is only one where someone falls off a cliff and it isn't even for suicide. The professor mentions this in class after he reads the journals. He gives me a little inspiration but the damage is done. He said that no matter if we all write about the same thing, we will bring a part of us into it.
After that all meanness stops and instead there is nothing more than, "Wow, that was nice and well written." I don't think anyone actually improved their writing, just their attitude, worried about being too mean. Or maybe that bitch with the Polish sounding name in the corner gave an F-U to every thing she read and the others don't want to be mean like her anymore.
It's unfortnate that such damage came from a place that is supposed to be supportive and encouraging.
I stop writing after this; until my second senior year in college where I took a class about writing. The professor was encouraging. She even had me looking through the Writer's Resource book from the library, looking for periodicals to submit my memoir about my cat. The professor of the second writing class is much better at refining writing, about educating us on how to do critiques, about giving us an opportunity to learn about the writing we'll do in our future fields. I have been writing memoir stories ever since.
We read stories in our book, written by famous writers, and comment or talk about them. We pretend like we read other stories that are included in our book but I really don't. A guy with a red hat mentions "Yellow Wallpaper" and I remember reading it once for a women's studies class so I say that I read it too.
We have to write stories for the class. They're supposed to be anonymous. They're not. Even if you don't know who it is, you can tell in the class discussion by who isn't talking. My short story is 10 pages and I want it to be more. I don't think I capture what I wanted in it but it is a story. I did some research for it by reading The Outspoken Princess and the Gentle Knight. My story is based on my friends and their dramatic girlfriends. When I took Abnormal Psychology a year later and found about the word hysterionic, I know that that's what they were. With my story, in the end, the prince, who wants to marry the princess who is cheating on him, realizes that she's not going to change so he throws himself off a cliff. I realize after I write this to not have a set ending because the characters didn't seem like the type to kill themselves-- just leave and move on. I don't want to make it longer than it is. I have to copy it at school and it's going to be a lot of money to copy it for the 15 students.
The night before I have to turn this story into the class so they could take it home and criticize it, the library card reader wasn't working after I just put ten dollars on my card to be used for the copies. I was upset. I wanted my money back so I could make these copies for the students.
I get up early the morning its due and go to the library early. The card reader was thankfully working and I copied and stapled them right there.
I walk five minutes to the building where my class is and step into the classroom. I set the copies on the professor's table and sit in my chair next to the door and wait for the class to start. The class before ours must have been cancelled because no one is lingering in the class, trying to talk to the professor. They usually look happy when they leave. I would have rather been in that class.
My story is ok. I think it's clever. It isn't too bad. It has a lot of potential and I hope others would see that.
This class we discuss a student's story about coming out at Thanksgiving and another story about an adventure-er with an inflated ego and how he changed by climbing a mountain and facing a lion. I heard a similar story in "Wayne's World."
The next class came. I am dreading this day. The girls in the corner don't like me, even though one has a Polish sounding last name like mine. I hang out with Mike and Vanessa in the corner near the door. They are nice. Vanessa is always trying to find a story in her life. I thought she wasn't creative or maybe she didn't know how to be. This class sure wouldn't teach her to improve.
We didn't go over how to do constructive criticism. I get back all the stories I had copied. They now have edit marks by the kids who don't know how to do criticism well. Each person has to do a write up on the story on top of editing it. The professors gives these to me too after he had checked that everyone had done one. I could tell that he unfortunately doesn't read what's written on them.
The most horrible thing is from that bitch in the corner with the Polish sounding last name. She wrote, "This author displays no creativity." I keep a journal for class about the things I read and what I think about certain things. I write about how I read up on modern fairy tales and there is only one where someone falls off a cliff and it isn't even for suicide. The professor mentions this in class after he reads the journals. He gives me a little inspiration but the damage is done. He said that no matter if we all write about the same thing, we will bring a part of us into it.
After that all meanness stops and instead there is nothing more than, "Wow, that was nice and well written." I don't think anyone actually improved their writing, just their attitude, worried about being too mean. Or maybe that bitch with the Polish sounding name in the corner gave an F-U to every thing she read and the others don't want to be mean like her anymore.
It's unfortnate that such damage came from a place that is supposed to be supportive and encouraging.
I stop writing after this; until my second senior year in college where I took a class about writing. The professor was encouraging. She even had me looking through the Writer's Resource book from the library, looking for periodicals to submit my memoir about my cat. The professor of the second writing class is much better at refining writing, about educating us on how to do critiques, about giving us an opportunity to learn about the writing we'll do in our future fields. I have been writing memoir stories ever since.
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